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apatheticghost: REASONS TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE IT MAKES PEOPLE FEEL GOOD IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD ITS...

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:54:07 -0400

REASONS TO BE NICE TO PEOPLE

IT MAKES PEOPLE FEEL GOOD

IT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD

ITS NICE

YOU ARE A PLEASANT AND COOL PERSON

BEING MEAN IS MEAN

THERES NO REASON TO BE RUDE AND HATEFUL WHEN WE’RE ALL JUST PEOPLE LIVING ON THE SAME PLANET AND TRYING TO GET THROUGH OUR LIVES AND ENJOY THE TIME WE HAVE

nextyearsgirl: “Agree to disagree” is white guy speak for “I understand you have an opinion but...

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:53:47 -0400

nextyearsgirl:

“Agree to disagree” is white guy speak for “I understand you have an opinion but unfortunately, me.”

“cassondra…of course I’d fall in love with a...

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:53:00 -0400

“cassondra…of course I’d fall in love with a cassondra”

maybe it was just the ecstasy and the chemical brothers playing swoon only so many yards in front of us, but I’d never heard my name and felt like it was me before I heard those words. good memories.

Photo

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:50:51 -0400

"Your eyes make me shy."

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:49:48 -0400

“Your eyes make me shy.”

- Anaïs Nin (via themilkywhiteway)

complxe: blua: Let’s go swimming: Rainbow Pool, Madrid,...

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:49:08 -0400

complxe:

blua:

Let’s go swimming: Rainbow Pool, Madrid, Spain

what, wow

i think this is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen in my life

you don't have to answer this publicly but I want to say that it's really cool that you said "yeah I think I have this problem and am looking for help for it". like my ex never would accept that she had a problem (she thought BPD made her superior to me and I was treated as such) and I think you follow my girlfriend sapphicslut so you might know she's in a fight with a girl who won't admit she has a problem and treats people like dirt. idk I just think it's admirable sorry to bother you friend

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:44:00 -0400

I mean my whole life I was treated like having a mental illness was an insult, getting ‘help’ was treated as a threat, and idk i feel like it’s a recent development that people are even able to talk about it somewhat openly. It’s taken me like 9 years to get here, (not to discredit myself, I’m proud that I have, regardless) and it took so much loneliness, and so many burnt bridges, and I hurt a lot of people before I realized it, unfortunately.

It’s taken a while but I finally love myself, and I love my girlfriend too much, to keep living on a grid of rock-bottom inclines and emotional meltdowns at any given coordinate.

Hopefully your ex can get to that point, too. Everyone deserves to know that help is a good thing, help is about bettering life, not sentencing them to a label and judgement and a prescription so that the rest of the world approves of them.

not a bother at all, i’ve actually never even had someone say that to me. it’s a nice reminder to give myself a much-needed a pat on the back, so thank you c:

self-acceptance

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:33:03 -0400

borderlinelife:

I think it’s beautiful who I am. I love harder and more deeply than most people. I feel emotions at a level of intensity that most people won’t ever experience and I’m okay with that. I love me. I just wish more people did.

your post sounds a lot like my relationship with my borderline personality disorder ex girlfriend and if that is anywhere near the case, you are way strong for making it through that. I almost killed myself.

Tue, 21 May 2013 05:18:00 -0400

It’s strange because I know environmental conditioning is a huge factor in developing borderline personality disorder, and I’m almost positive it was her psychosis that drove me to developing my own (I can’t diagnose myself, but nothing fits me better than borderline).

When I was with her I was also being mentally and physically abused by my parents almost every single day, and that went on for four years. Suicide attempts aplenty.

But here we are.

And thank fuck for that, amirite? It’s heavy baggage but at least we’re strong enough to still carry it.

And I look forward to the day that I’m strong enough to drop it altogether.

You destroyed me before I was even a person. Perhaps there were certain elements of predisposition...

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:52:00 -0400

You destroyed me before I was even a person.
Perhaps there were certain elements of predisposition but wow, realizing how incredibly traumatic my relationship with you was is so…enlightening.
It breaks my heart all over again to know you’ve done it to other people, but it makes me feel validated, it lets me know I can help myself to heal because i was never anything but a victim, the way you treated me wasn’t my fault, I was never the monster you tried to make me believe that I was. Until I did.

I let everything rip me apart from the inside out, becoming completely untethered from reality and clinging to comfort the equivalent of a bed of nails. Because it was all I thought I’d ever have, because no one else could ever possibly love me. You were making sure of that.
I forgave you a long time ago because I realize that you legitimately are sick, but for the longest time something in me said that you’d change or grow out of it. But you didn’t.
I still wonder so many things.

How did I last for so fucking long. How did i even live.
I’m so happy that I did.

That I finally know what love actually is.

And I’m so endlessly thankful for the beautiful girl I’ve found it with, who, on the daily, still has to deal with the insecurities and scars you embedded so much deeper than my flesh, and stays, always. Which is all I’ve ever wanted.

“The fire that destroys us creates the ashes we rise from”

I finally acquired a decent sports bra so I think it might be time for me to start...

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:22:00 -0400

I finally acquired a decent sports bra so I think it might be time for me to start jogging/running.
I’ve always fucking hated it, but so many people say it does so much good for them, and i’ve already reached a lot of my fitness goals so I’d like to try to accomplish something new.
I need to strengthen my heart and lungs, I’ll just start slow and force my body to adapt.
Hopefully it’ll help me fall asleep earlier, too. I think melatonin is starting to have some weird reverse-effect on me to where it actually keeps me awake longer :S i’ve been in bed since 2 pm and have only slept four hours in a 2 day period. I just feel so wired, but only mentally. I don’t know what it is anymore, but it has to stop. Tbh sex is pretty much the only thing (besides booze, and fuck that because I’ve been doing it for so many years and i just can’t anymore) that helps me sleep but my girlfriend is so old and not health-conscious and tired at night because she always has to wake up early. Shit outta luck and it frustrates the living hell out of me.
It’s going to kill me but I think dragging my ass out of bed before the sun comes up, even if that means i’ve only slept an hour or two, will help to quickly retrain my body and help it develop a better sleeping schedule.
And i’m getting a bedside lamp and a library card so that i have enough books and can read every night before bed instead of being on my phone googling shit for hours and straining my eyes/keeping my brain too alert.
So many little steps to take, I suppose it’s better than barely crawling along, though.
Time to fantasize about bb spa/massage days and beach get-aways to soothe the stupid bullshit feelings that flood me as soon as I try to close my eyes.
Blogging helps but the light is too much and i can barely even say what i want to because of stupid slow-ass touchscreen bullshit
u__u goodnight tumblr

ponchopeligroso: every single person you know has something in their life and past that is probably...

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:05:02 -0400

ponchopeligroso:

every single person you know has something in their life and past that is probably worth collapsing to the ground in an uncontrollably sobbing heap over, so be nice to each other and tell good jokes

"I’m not gonna sit around and waste my precious divine energy trying to explain and be ashamed of..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:04:07 -0400

“I’m not gonna sit around and waste my precious divine energy trying to explain and be ashamed of things you think are wrong with me.”

- Esperanza Spalding (via punkrockmermaid)

I can’t wait to have my own kitchen again ;A;

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:03:19 -0400

I can’t wait to have my own kitchen again ;A;

Lol how about no give me all of your attention bitch

Tue, 21 May 2013 00:08:12 -0400

Lol how about no give me all of your attention bitch

He fucking knows

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:19:00 -0400

He fucking knows

My croutons, plain avocado, i always catch her in the god Damn...

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:17:00 -0400

My croutons, plain avocado, i always catch her in the god
Damn act piss me off

"My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude."

Mon, 20 May 2013 14:42:56 -0400

“My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude.”

- Warsan Shire (via an-artful-life)

Real mad that there’s no “post to tumblr” feature for vine Cause this shit is so...

Mon, 20 May 2013 14:41:29 -0400

Real mad that there’s no “post to tumblr” feature for vine
Cause this shit is so funny

ianthe: preferred mode of travel tbh omfg

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:01:35 -0400

ianthe:

preferred mode of travel tbh

omfg